I know it sounds odd. The idea of hope hurting. But when you think about it, it makes perfect sense. When you are left holding on to a desire that has yet to happen, and you are battling the fear that the desire will never happen, things can get a little bloody.
I’m tired of being single. For the past 27 years it’s all I’ve ever known. But I am also determined to ride this wave out until God answers this prayer. I say “determined” because I know that as long as I continue to stay single, I will be faced with the temptation to take care of my desire for a relationship on my own terms. But that isn’t faith…and it definitely isn’t hope. Hope is sitting through my pain of waiting, with the unwavering faith that God will give me the desires of my heart.
“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
Psalm 27: 14
So, despite my grief for not receiving what it is that my soul so desires, I must trust that God’s timing is perfect. And his will is divine.
My aching heart will wait on the Lord. Because, one, I truly believe that God will answer this prayer-beyond my prayers. Two, I know that what I pick for myself will be far less than what God wants to give me, and because, three, hope is worth fighting for. If only for the benefit of whispering a sweet “thank you” to the one who had me covered from the beginning.
Let’s all fight for hope.